I'm having a bad anxiety episode. I can't sleep, I've consumed a lot of caffeine to compensate and I'm suffering from abnormally horrid symptoms. The suffering tonight is that instead of sleep Im experiencing a semi-consciousness like sleep, except nothing at all like sleep, where I just lay in the dark scratching all my exposed skin until it stings and bleeds without realising.
And then of course, I roll over and realise how much of my own skin is under my nails and my stomach lurches like I've almost crashed into a truck and I have to smush my face into a pillow because there's blood and skin under my nails and everything stings like pepper.
Except then I hear my phone buzz and it is my mother: "Mani my spirit uneasy. Tell me you're okay"
Like I said, I fucks with black momma spirit magic heavy. You can't convince me that this isn't supm unreal.
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