It's that feeling when everything has turned to shit, and

Everyone just seems to be leaving; to be walking away from you.

I know it's probably an exaggeration so you don't have to fucking tell me, but in the end isn't it just that if you don't leave then you're the one who's always getting left?

It's really just that simple sometimes. Things don't say the same, relationships don't last forever, etc. It really sometimes breaks down to the fact that eventually someone has to leave.

If you're not leaving, then eventually you'll be left.

It just sucks when you're always the one being left, and it's hard leaving all the time.

Currently, I am being left. My friends are moving to new schools, new towns, new countries, new continents. I am telling them all goodbye and waving as they start new chapters and move on with their lives. Day in, day out; I am here. I am saying goodbyes. I am preparing to say goodbyes.

Constant, (noun): A situation or state of affairs that does not change.

As far as the constant that is my life, I am constantly in a state of emotional distress. I am broken, bruised, scared, lonely, pensive, hurt, sad, insecure.

But I refuse to let depression win the fight in a war I wage against myself.

My friends will leave. Boys I like will leave. At the end of the day, I have me... and I need to stop making her my enemy.

Constantly yours,
me.